Do you believe in love at first sight?! i didn't .. until i meet Rolly three years ago .. through my bestfriend, at the time i thought the attraction i felt for him was just my way "rebounding" from a brokenheart. now however, i've realiezed that it was more than that, im 18 years old right now, im in rather confusing stage of my life and i'm hoping that someone would able to help me .. i really dont know how to expain how i've fallen for him despite the fact that in the three years that we've known each other we've only been together six times ..i guess you can compare my story to that of "HUGH GRANT IN FOUR WEDDINGS AND A FUNERAL" we only see each other on certain occasions like birthdays and other partie, but i still fell in love with him and we always manage to have a good time togethr... i've tried crossing out my feeling for him in the hopes that the next time we saw each other i wouldn't feel anything the problem is, everytime we see each other, the feeling doesn't fade.. on the contrary, it becomes stronger the more i find out about him, either positive or negative, the more i feel for him just being with him for those six times have beeb enough to make what i feel stronger.. believe me. i tried to move on, to have more meaningful relationship that are more worthwhile than my feeling for Rolly.. i dont know how to move on. Everytime i tried i always go back to the feelings the way i do for him, and strangely enough, the feelings becomes stronger through time, there would be times when i would say to myself that i don't feel anything for him anymore and even get involved with other guys.. then last year, i thought that i would finally have my feelings reciprocated. During a truth or consequence game with his cousins, he admitted that he liked me-- that it just wasn't the right time it was hard to listen to him say that he had a girlfriend but the fact that headmitted that he liked was enough for me then... last febraury, we saw each other again. Unlike the previous year, he was very indifferent. I felt he was trying to block me out somehow. i felt so confused-- but thee moment i see him again the feelings comes back even stronger than before i really dont know what to do. i feel so confused. i dont understand my feelings, i had what i feel but i can't seem to stop. There's not a day that i dont think aboutr him... he doesn't take over my whole life but i have to admit that he has a very special place in it he always will.. My bestfriend thought that maybe he was just trying to hold back what he felt for me since he has a girlfriend, she also pointed out that he probably thought that there would be no use for us to have a relationship anyway because we didn't see each other often but that was her opinion.. as for me, i didn't know what to think, i didn't understand anything at all..
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